Saturday, December 26, 2009

PFFFFFFFFFT!!!!!!!!!!!!

That sound is the air being let out of my tires, folks. This Christmas season found me baking around the clock, planning and decorating as usual, only with a few changes. First, Hammy Tammy and I found each other again after eleven years. That has been yet another blessing in my already blessed life. Second, my nineteen year old son, after being there for three years, has finally moved out from under the shabby roof of his worthless, non child support paying biological father to move in with his actual daddy, (the man who reared him, and who is "daddy", in every sense of the word-a wonderful father and human being, with whom he should have stayed from the start.) Nonetheless, he's there, and safe and happy, and that's all that matters. Third, I am discovering myself all over again. I am rethinking things about my life, what I want and how I intend to get it. Fourth, I have met and made some amazing friends through this blogging experience. Fifth, I am going to be returning to the theatre soon, onstage, which is in my blood and which I have dearly missed all these years, but had family and decided against. Sixth, I had a wonderful time this Christmas and Thanksgiving, though I'm tired and worn down. It was all worth it to see the looks on their faces when they saw the lights, tasted the homemade treasures, and bathed in the warm glow of Christmas candlelight. Christmas dinner was perfect, and enjoyed by all. I wish my parents could have been here in person. I know they were with us, but it isn't quite the same. I miss them dearly.
So though my body aches and I'm exhausted, there is a sweet sense of peace that surrounds me. Another Christmas, and I pulled it off again. Someone once told me that I make Christmas magic. I beg to differ. I don't actually make the magic...I just love spreading it around. Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night. May your new year bring prosperity, love, peace and serenity, and may all your dreams come true.

Much Love,
Deborah
Posted by at 2:20 PM

5 comments:

  1. hey lady! just coming by to see what's up - and looks as if a lot has been up with you and yours! so happy for your son's move - did he ever make it by one or more of my blogs? it's really difficult when our children reach a certain age and we are not able to guide them as we wish - well, that they listen to, anyway! :)
    but he can have no doubt of your love for him! i wish him well!

    hmmmm...seems we both are re-thinking a lot these days - as i'm sure others are, as well - in terms of what i want and how to get it, i'm right there in the trenches with you! wonderful you are getting back on stage - while i think of it, my sister in louisiana is a theatre director and acting coach has been for many years - she was on the east coast [dc and nyc] for years and despite several years of god-awful health problems is doing her experimental theatre work and acting classes again - just finished a production of copenhagen and is in the works to do sam shepard's fool for love in the spring - i had told her about you and she dropped by your blog some time ago but am not sure if she left a message or not - in any event, she has a blog but is not really a blogger, so to speak - i've been trying to get her to become more active with it but if you'd like to drop by there it's "jcgcollaborations" right here in bloggerville -

    i managed to finish the two large paintings i was doing the past couple of weeks and now have several more lined up - it's been so long since i painted and it was wonderful to be at an easel again - i posted a few really bad shots of them at gypsywomanworld on the 12/28 post called the canvases of my life if you wanna check them out -

    hope things are going well for you and yours - it certainly sounds as if they are - good for you!!!

    peace and love, chick!
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  2. Happy New Year to you and yours, Deborah! I hope you have a wonderful year filled with blessings and joy.

    Nevine
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  3. Ah, Sam Shepard--a personal fave of mine. So glad to hear you finished some paintings, GYPSYWOMAN. It's wonderful to accomplish one thing let alone more than one at my age heh heh. I miss it, my creative life. I have been in a slump lately, a bit melancholy, introspective. Taking care of holiday details. But I'm back for good now. Rethinking, indeed. Rethinking personal relationships--do they serve me well? Are they toxic and unhealthy? Indeed rethinking my life as a whole. Yes, Toby did manage to read several of your postings, but left no comments. He loved the artwork as well, and commented on how serene he felt when he was at your site. So glad to hear your friend is doing theatre in spite of health issues. Sometimes tapping into our creative wealth really does wonders for our physical ailments. I plan on going to your friend's blog today or this evening and will get back with you and leave her some comments as well. Thank you so much for being such a wonderful "far away friend". I'd dearly love to meet you, someday, my dear, as I feel we would have soooo much in common. Perhaps we can make that happen.
    Much Love,
    Deborah
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  4. Nevine, Happy New Year to you and yours, as well. I have been so absent of late with the holidays and scarlet fever with my two year old and other sicknesses in the house and baking and decorating ad infinitum. But I'm back, and I'll be perusing your site as well to soak up your genius. Thank you so much for stopping by, sweet friend!
    Much Love,
    Deborah
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